Tuesday, April 10, 2007'♥
pure love ♥
ARRRHHHH! I really feel like screaming and i think
I'm going to explode! Yes, many things in life is often beyond our control, and i have to totally agree on that that sometimes, things just won't go the way we want it to be... Love is not to order... But no matter how hard i try, no matter what i do, putting away that 4 letter word away and not letting it out is driving me nuts.... For those who don't know me well, i bet they will think i am one big
emo freak! Day in day out so emotional about stuffs... "Take it easy!" You'll say. You're right, maybe i am... However, ever since i tried to stop all my nonsenses, and divert all my attention onto better stuffs, i get all clotted up inside.... I feel so lost without that someone. I feel empty without that someone. Why?! Someone Please tell me why?!
I always thought i was a very independent girl, a career minded, care free, no one can control me type of person... But recently only did i realised that
I've became so submissive, so agreeable, so yes dear, anything you want dear kind of person! What had happened? Had i changed or is it the person's influences on me? Gosh! I feel like I'm going mad....
I know whatever i say now, it won't make you change the way you think. You might even think i am childish, self centred and stubborn... But i just want only the sweetest and happiest moments and memories before i leave this place to further heights. That i could never have to drop a single drop of tears, and be embraced in you arms
once again for the last time before i start missing it for the next 2 and a half years? Can u be so cruel not to fulfil this easily contented child's wish, to be felt loved and be the whole world to you just like you had for your ex? You only have to bluff me for 2 months, because i know you still can't replace her in your heart... But after that, only God will know when or ever will we see each other again... Because if we were never meant to be, even flesh and blood can never bring us together. Don't worry, no pressure, i don't like it when you don't smile and is so unhappy. I just want to wish you well... Well, at least I realized your smile that very fine day, had a big enough impact to brighten up my world?! Please don't take away my sunshine! Friend we shall be if you say so....... =/
