people practically walk in and out of our life's' daily. like every passing cloud that floats in the sky, they are at specific places for a good reason, to block the excessive sun rays when needed. however it comes a time when the weather turns windy and it blows the clouds away, that we realize that it's not forever that we can hide under it's shade of comfort.
our friends are like the sun shades we wear. we see the world from different perspectives and colour, which a naked eye couldn't do with them. yet so often we rely on them so much we lose the sense of self judgement on how bright things could become.
and as we stroll along the breezy path at the beach, it suddenly comes so clear to us that whatever we can see now won't last forever. soon, the sun will rest and the moon will settle in, revealing it's own set of beauty. accompanied by the stars that twinkles by it's side, the journey still goes on... without the sun shades and without the fluffy clouds, but only the new dark sky as the limits, nothing won't be impossible... along side acquaintance with the memories that was imprinted into our minds; the times when we used to walk along this sandy path, hand in hand, watching the horizon, that life got to go on and that time is not on our side. fate had ran out for many, together with the red round yoke that once lit up the universe. maybe tomorrow will be a better day, and somehow, somewhere at a cross road, that we might meet again soon.
12:22am 29/07/2007 Aussie time

Yeah~ you're right, being sick while overseas isn't a fun thing at all. happy to say that i just recovered from diarrhea yeaterday, only god knows what i ate, and now, i am suffering this thing call home sick. it's like i don't want to do anything at all, because i am so sick of everything around me. I can't access to my e-mails, msn nor even have a connection at my place to start with. no luck in making friends either.
well, i'm starting to realize that i don't really understand all my lectures, i am actually very lonely deep down inside, and i do miss everybody back in Singapore alot! even so those who make my life miserable. sigh...
anyway, no worries, as the people here always say. i will upload my room pictures the next round i log on. there i go again- sigh...
4:32pm Aussie time

life can actually be very taxing. everyday, it's all about making decisions. and it's the decisions that we make every second that counts and determines our future to come.
lets put it this way, it's mind over heart. that's because the heart is weak and gets distracted easily. we live in a complicated world, where the greats deception is cheating the untruth that it's all for real. therefore, the mind call the shots. the big boss if you would like to call it.
we play games, set rules, and go against all human consciences. so constantly we forget even the simplest human touch we once had and soon, numb that part of ourselves which beats constantly yet quietly in it's place, supplying all of it's goodness of rich oxygenated blood to the brain where it keeps it going.
yet, so often it have been left neglected and unappreciated. being left ignored and going against all odds, the heart never complains. it just produce this magical thing called feelings. however somehow, it got manipulated too in the process.
this thing call life... what do you reckon?!
11.58pm aussie time.

hmmm... i guess life here isn't that bad after all. other then my hungry tummy now, basically settling down quite well... got to know some new friends, while cool though, at least i am not a loner now... haha... can't wait till Friday, because that's when my flat mate moves in.. *thumbs up* everything seems to fall in place now... Thanks God!
anyway, i still have hundred and one things i want and wish to do, hope 2.5 years will be enough for me to finish them! sigh~ life's sooo different when you don't have those close to you near you. i get mood swings now and then and really do yearn badly for a big hug. but i guess it will just have to wait then...
everyday is an adventure lived. every minute is so precious. but nothing beats the comfort zone i used to live in... miss it so so dearly!
-from a somebody to a nobody!-
3.32pm Aussie time.

it's the 1st day of school and i am wearing out soon. i am so lost. the lessons, the notes, how to get stuffs around here and things like that. my dumb lap top isn't connecting to the wireless system, the cost to print notes here is high, and i have been running all around this rural town call Bundoora the whole day now.
i know it's not good to start complaining on the 1st day of classes, but i seriously got to admit that i am damn tired. i don't really know why!
as i type now, my head spins, and my body and soul drained out in exhaustion. am i falling sick? hope not!!!
what's life without fun and relaxation? but how could i when everything here is so costly and all i could do is to study my best i know how to compensate for lost time and money spent. ARGH!!! give me a break someone...
anyway, i guess i better be heading back now, it's freezing cold outside and getting dark soon. one bad point about winter, it's barely 5pm yet. the days are short ya? sigh, what can i say then... i really do miss Singapore!
4.15pm aussie time

wow!? 1 week has passed and my lessons start this coming Monday. feeling abit scare though, how will everything and everyone be like? hmmmm.... i guess it will be hard work from then on. i should be fine, i will be... if it don't kills me, it will make me stronger.. JIA YOU!
i really miss all my friends in Singapore. now at the moment i have none here. hahaha... what a living joke right? haven't settle my net, land line and stuffs like that. hopefully i can do it by the end of the month.
I'm going to church tomorrow. finally!!! i get to interact.
anyway, i guess i still really can't let go of certain stuffs from the past. which i thought i could if i leave the place. no matter how hard i try, i just end up denying myself and the truth that i still care.
under the same sky we share it's beauty, though breathing different air, living different cultures, and thousand miles apart, but my heart is still the same. and looking upon the same bright star at night, i wish you well and happiness in everything you do. while you still have what you got now, love and cherish it, it won't be there forever and it will never be the same. so if once got a hold of it, hear me out, never lose heart. at least not till the person is gone, that you will regret that something could had been worked out. yet!, never regret in life, just move on... cheers!
9.10pm aussie time

it is so true that we will never know how much we care and cherish for that something or someone until we lost it. being away and alone in a far away land for more then 12 hours now, it is the every second that made me realize how much we used to take for granted what was always around us and the value of each moment lived together. many things in time i hope i could relive. the times we laughed, late nights out, shopping, the times spent hogging the phone, and along with many others, it was like as if there was no tomorrow. but the tomorrow came, and i had to go.. far far far away. but never aless, life have to go on...
little and never did i expect that one fine day i will come so far, away and out of my comfort zone, venturing into a foreign land, "starting a new life". lets look at it this way, i will be back a better person ya? prettier, i hope.. much stronger and Independent, more capable, in every area life challenges may bring.
soon, some may become history, blurred by circumstances, because time will let memories fade. but i will remember that there was once this beautiful piece of picture, now blank, awaiting for another spectacular start! i will always remember all the memories imprinted in my life, because this is what i have brought along with me, closest to my heart.
7/7/07 9.40pm aust

Friends are an essential in our life. As the saying goes: no man is an island. Just like water and bread, they keep us going. Thank you! For all the fond memories you have inplanted in me. I am more then contented, that every second spend with you is all worth while. One life i have, a happier one you all have made it be... I will miss you and all the times we had together! Forget me not! God Bless!
My "Good boy"!

Nursing warriors!

Best buddies...

My soul friend!

You Will Always Be Close To My Heart

Just Being Me! Simple yet complicated~ There is no good or bad days, just days of grace. The grace to enjoy or the grace to endure.

Wear comfy shoes

Travel around the world

Live a life of a princess

Be in a happy and strong marriage and have lots children

Have my own house and car

buy and do things i could never afford or think about before

SwEeT dIaNa
~aH bOnG~
Mui Mui
BenicE

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