Monday, October 8, 2007'♥
pure love ♥
Sitting by the composed and peaceful silence of the lake is all i want to do now. call me temperamental, i am. going through the motions of life has wore me out.and lost in this crude world of insensitivity, i wonder really how much longer more do i have till i graduate? not literally, but when all are well and settled. if tears could save the drought, i will cry a river. why?! why in the foolishness state of the world cause pain and confusion to oneself? i am one lost soul. lost in the vivid vision of truth and myths. i need a hug, because out of it comes ford sincerity, security and comfort. just like a child in her mum's embraces, i won't fear even if the sky would have fall.
Monday, October 1, 2007'♥
pure love ♥
sometimes, this little world of my can be so ironically cruder. just like how i don't even know who i am blogging to, things can be abit over the edge for me at times, like now. so who is right, what is right and how everything can go wrong?
at the end of the day, all i can say is that i had enough! at my age, i should be taken care of... make sense don't it? or at least me being a girl, the weaker of the sexes, i should be look-aftered ya? i bet it's not something new hey.
however, things in jumble Joe's world isn't the same here. i get so tired because i have to oversee stuff that aren't in my scope of 'have to' in the family and be responsible for many other vital stuff in my life.
i end up being a mother to many but none of my own.*geez* don't i deserve to be pampered and live a life like what other girls my age gets?
i submit to fate that maybe, something better awaits. behind the dark clouds there will always be the sun that patiently wait for due time to appear. but why must others add for burden on me then? have some sympathy yea?
therefore i concluded that if you can't share my burden and support me, please leave me alone. i am no better alone than with another extra load of attention seekers. it is that much i can give. i need my childhood back which i never had. never will i believe that fairy tales do come true. how i wish it does!
