Friday, October 24, 2008'♥
pure love ♥
If you guys were wandering if roselyn is lose with the wind, almost right.. haha.. was so busy and stressed up with my damn assignments that i don't even remember to eat dinner. i have finally finish the last of it and will sleep like there is no tomorrow when i hand it in! getting alittle feverish now, must be a warning sign of overworked. I'm somewhat starting to hate the culture here. part of it is liberty that course mates can sent their essay for you to reference, but part of it is pure annoying when your group mates just leave you there to swim for your life, writing god knows what! what happened to the care and share lifestyle? anyway, enough of that. let me tell you how i spent my 21st birthday.
actually it's nothing much really. rented a car to drive, something i always wanted to do, and scare the wits out of all my friends with my shocking driving skills.. haha.. and as usual, i can't park. hee...
when to watch the last sunset of my 20th year on 10/10/08, but didn't manage to wake up for the 1st sunrise of my new chapter because i was too tired after the 2 hours drive to and fore.
on the day itself, 11/10/08, got my very 1st birthday gift at 9.35am! my 1st and last parking ticket fine!!!! hahaha, cause we never move the car away before 7.30am, therefore got fine... opphzz.. anyhow, when to a winery 1hr's drive away from home. the view was breathe taking. but it was a rush and pity because we had to go to church soon after. Ended the day with a quiet dinner with my church friends, oh well, at least i did something and celebrated this year! oh ya! and my housemate did gave me a surprise birthday surprise at 12am, how sweet of her.. so that's me, my 'big' day and I.. haha...
Monday, October 6, 2008'♥
pure love ♥
there goes another week and here i am blogging in a blog that most probability only i will read. sounds sad hey? oh well, at least i can get all my thoughts out of my head before i continue full on with my 4000 word essay. so, where should i start, well, i guess it's true about the saying that a leopard will never change it's spots. somehow, i realized that i am still who i was 3 years ago, not changing a single bit. as much as i hated the past and all mess that was in it,i just don't understand why the past seems so attractive. it lures me back like a flashing sign board or should it be bonded me like a jail ball. no matter how hard i try, no distances how far i run, it's haunts me like a ghost from the past.so here i am, in a new place, with new people, yet dreadfully back to square one, where the mess begin and the wreckage start. a full circle of sticky situations that i tired so hard to avoid without avail.
a story left untold is still a story itself. at the end, it's none but the author who wrote it that is accountable for it's publishing and outcome. i really wish i could burn the past, it's like an ugly scar that sits right under the corner of your nose. no amount of effort will conceal it, and ultimately becomes a pest in your sight. too much is left in the dark, and countless memories shoved up the yard. yet my heart starts to grow numbed to a thing called consciences, dying in my world of no escape.
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